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I’d want it to incorporate some sense of diversity. But I’d rather approach it in the same way I approach my writing. Now, as someone who loves obscure adventures in life, there is a part of me that does think it’d be a total thrill to perform some sexy action on camera with the intent to distribute it. I would feel devastated if that were to happen. But if seeing it in action (even for a lot of money) means that my writing and my thoughts and my reflections all go away, then it would not be worth it. I am flattered that some people may find my body sexually enticing and want to see it in action.

I truly think I have more brains to offer than body. But if it is not what they want, then that would really suck.

#Johnny inkslinger mistake eraser professional

There is a reason we don’t come across professional titles such as “author/porn actor.” Or even if we do, they have authored a book relating to porn.Īnd none of that is a bad thing if that is what the porn actor wants. Whether it is on purpose or not, their sexuality is the only side of them we mainly see. Plus, it seems like when guys go into porn, that becomes their whole identity to the general public. I wouldn’t want to be a part of the system that perpetuates that. While I do enjoy porn, I also get tired of how the unrealistic body images and unrealistic sexual expectations can impact the folks in our community. Nah, I don’t think I’d be interested in becoming a gay porn star nowadays, at least not in the traditional sense. Truly, it is a skill, and just like an accountant is drawn to their love of numbers, a sex worker can be drawn to their love of deepthroating on camera. In the end, porn is a legalized type of “sex work” and there are tons of men and women who are truly gifted in the art and performance of sex (without it being some repressed psychological issue). But I don’t think all guys who go into porn are like that. I imagine that it isn’t uncommon to be drawn to porn by some unconscious need for validation. As I hinted at above, I had been trying to get self-esteem from a lot of the wrong places. It shattered my self-esteem, which was actually the exact thing I needed. I backed out because life and sex suddenly became very confusing to me. This should have been affirming I guess, but it wasn’t.

And that right there was the problem.Īfter I got the HIV diagnosis, they said it wouldn’t be an issue because we would use condoms. The fact that they thought I had the potential to be in porn was a major boost to my self-esteem. I got connected with these guys who would have been like my “agents” for adult film stuff. This happened right before I got my HIV diagnosis. Then fate (if you want to call it that) had a very funny way of intervening. But here’s the plot twist: I almost did go into traditional porn once upon a time. However, in this universe, I don’t foresee it ever happening.